Waiting on God
Today, I had hoped to be arriving in Budapest. I hoped to be meeting my new co-wokers and seeing my new house that I will be living in. But I am here, sitting on my bed at my parent's house waiting. Why am I waiting? Because it is God's good plan to have me wait.
I have no doubt in my mind that God is capable, willing and wants to provide for my financial needs as I head to Hungary. He has already provided so much in such a limited amount of time. However, in His infinite wisdom and sovereign plan he has chosen not to provide the remaining 25% of my needs yet. I know he will, in His time. Meanwhile, he has taken me by the hand leading me back to himself. He wants to meet much deeper needs than just my physical and financial needs. He wants to meet my spiritual and emotional needs. He is jealous for me and will do anything, including keeping me from going to Hungary, if it means that I will remain in Him. He has been stripping away my pride, my security I think I have, my control and making me completely dependent upon Him. It's not been easy. It's not been pretty. He is gracious and merciful. "Therefore the Lord, waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him." Isaiah 30:18
He is making me face my biggest fear in this whole journey which was to make arrive "on time." But He's teaching me that He is bigger than my fears and He can handle them. He wants me to know that even if I don't arrive "on time" in Budapest and I have to face my fears He will be there. He will not let me down. He will care for me. He alone will be my salvation, my God and all that I need. (Psalm 34:4)
So, I wait. I wait for God to work in my life to teach me the lessons He has. May I learn to wait patiently and rest in the good work He is doing. May I not lose heart in waiting or give in to discouragement but hope in my God who does not put to shame (Romans 5:3-5, Ps. 34:5). May this waiting bear much fruit.
I have no doubt in my mind that God is capable, willing and wants to provide for my financial needs as I head to Hungary. He has already provided so much in such a limited amount of time. However, in His infinite wisdom and sovereign plan he has chosen not to provide the remaining 25% of my needs yet. I know he will, in His time. Meanwhile, he has taken me by the hand leading me back to himself. He wants to meet much deeper needs than just my physical and financial needs. He wants to meet my spiritual and emotional needs. He is jealous for me and will do anything, including keeping me from going to Hungary, if it means that I will remain in Him. He has been stripping away my pride, my security I think I have, my control and making me completely dependent upon Him. It's not been easy. It's not been pretty. He is gracious and merciful. "Therefore the Lord, waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him." Isaiah 30:18
He is making me face my biggest fear in this whole journey which was to make arrive "on time." But He's teaching me that He is bigger than my fears and He can handle them. He wants me to know that even if I don't arrive "on time" in Budapest and I have to face my fears He will be there. He will not let me down. He will care for me. He alone will be my salvation, my God and all that I need. (Psalm 34:4)
So, I wait. I wait for God to work in my life to teach me the lessons He has. May I learn to wait patiently and rest in the good work He is doing. May I not lose heart in waiting or give in to discouragement but hope in my God who does not put to shame (Romans 5:3-5, Ps. 34:5). May this waiting bear much fruit.
Thanks for writing this Amanda! I am right there with you...waiting for my visa before I can go to Czech. It is hard but God is good :) I will be praying for us both to be in Europe very soon!
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